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I'm so fucking tired   
10:26pm 31/01/2006
  I've done all I could. I've called up some people that I've wronged over the past couple of years, I burried my end of the hatchet.

I've been doing this all on my own for a long, long time.

I'm not really all that angry or sad, I knew that you had it in you from the moment I met you. You haven't surprised me by going your seperate way.

I'm tired, and I can be tired all on my own.

The end.

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05:40pm 08/11/2005
  I think I'm getting crazy again...I can't do too much without crying.

I refuse to be admitted to the nut house again. My new doctor is a fuck-ass. Over and out.

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03:46pm 18/04/2005
  I never thought I would say this but, I'm getting married next May to a wonderful man named Brian.

I've tried on some dresses and made a guest list but that's about it. I'll keep you all updated. Yay!

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10:33am 03/12/2004
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I do love him, it's true, but gramatically incorrect.

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04:24pm 25/11/2004
  I think that I'm falling in love. If you are one of my close friends get in contact with me and we can discuss details.

I really miss my ex-boyfriend, but I'm not quite ready to hang out with him just yet. I love you Tony, not like that.

Otherwise everything is going really well and I'm happy.

Gotta scat, bye bye.

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01:13pm 14/11/2004
  My ex-boyfriend left several drunken explicit messages about "doing it" on my voice mail last night. I'm debating telling Brian about them. On one hand, I could tell him and then never be able to hang out with ex-boyfriend again. On the other, I could just keep my mouth shut and feel guilty for not telling. I think I lose either way, no good.

Sam is refusing to speak to me. Suck.

Despite these shitty things, I'm doing pretty well. I cruised on over to my parent's house after getting 11 hours of sleep this morning. I feel a little frazzled today, but I'm sure that will go away with a little time.

My case is getting reviewed for SSI again tommorow. Everyone cross your fingers for me.

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11:58am 13/11/2004
  Awwww...I'm smitten with my new boyfriend. He's weird and gross and I love it!

I slept through class on Thursday and I missed an exam. Damnit.

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01:24pm 12/11/2004
  I stole this from The Fucking Wizard, and I'll be honest about it too.

I want you to ask me something you think you should know about me. Something that should be obvious, but you have no idea about.

Ask away. Then post this in your LJ and find out what people don't know about you.

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01:17pm 12/11/2004
  Yes! Success!  

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Update: This is for all my sistas who like to read about the boys I like.   
08:41am 08/11/2004
  Okay, here it goes.

I've got my sights set on one boy in particular. That's right, I'm closing in.

He's really nice and funny and he likes geeky things like comic books. It is rumored that he works at a comic book store. This boy will be named B. forever more.

So, I don't hang out with B. very often, and usually only when I'm with my best buddy Kristin, but this will soon change. I guess she's really trying to push it by telling us to hang out all of the time. I don't mind though, I think it's pretty sweet on her part. Although dating my best friend's ex-boyfriend would be kind of weird. I dunno...what-eva.

Okay, gotta cut this short so I can go and smoke before class. Bye bye.

P.S. Internet boyfriend is DONE! It was cool while it lasted. Allright.

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03:17pm 04/11/2004
  Kids, listen up. I'm in a bind. I like too many people all at once. And I'm talking now. Right now.

Point A. I'm in like with a friend who makes plans with me and then drops said plans for no apparent reason. I think he gets weird around girls.

Point B. I like a guy who has kind of the same thing that I do. But then it would be kind of weird to date him, since my best friend dated him, and blah blah blah.

Point C. I really like a guy who lives thousands of miles away. He tells me cute things, he's really hot, I want to hump him but he lives on the west coast. That sucks. Period.

Point D. Then there's the guy who you'll never get over, no matter how hard you try, he's always going to be your first choice. Yeah, I have one of those except it's ____________. Whom I've been in love with since 8th grade, still am. We were seeing each other a couple of summers ago but it didn't turn out like it wanted it to. Whatever...here at the camp Lane, we try not to pay attention to guy-you-can't-get-over because we know it just leads to heartache, pain, and "Performance Art" all over a couch.

Someone help and Point A. boy, you should get in touch with me pronto.

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05:02pm 01/11/2004
  I'm having a very good day today. You know who you are, and thank you.

Tommorow night at my house we will be celebrating the defeat of GW Bush and the loss of the democratic party living down the street from us.

I say "living" because one of those little fuckers is always there, it doesn't matter what time of day it is, or which day it is; they are always there. The lemmings take up my parking spaces with their yuppie mini vans plastered with rainbow Kerry/ Edwards stickers. I hate them. I hate them all.

Today I saw that the rims that keep spinning every time you stop are on sale at K-Mart. They only cost $30 each spinny rim. Yes, I thought about buying them, but only for a second.

I shall go now, as Dr. Thomas is calling my name.

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12:34pm 30/10/2004
  1. Choose 10-15 people from your friends list at random.
2. Write something about/to each of them.
3. Don't tell anyone who the statements are about. Good or bad.

All right...here it goes

1: Seeing you last night was really odd and kind of uncomfortable. I like you a lot as a person so I can't understand why it is so hard for me to feel allright around you. Maybe we just need some time. I love you very much and don't ever shave that moustach!

2: Sometimes it seems like we're in competition with each other for a certain friends attention and affection. I like you a lot, I think you are funny, creative, and thoughtfull. We never hang out and we should sometime soon. Soooo good.

3: Ah. It honestly makes me happy just to walk into the same room that you're in. I love hanging out with you all the time and your intelligence blows me right out of the water. Somehow, anything can be made fun when I'm with you. You are a safe box for secrets, one could tell you almost anything and you'd keep it hush hush. Thrift store shopping! It is good. High five!

4: Sometimes when I'm just sitting next to you, I have little daydreams of you and I running off through a field of daisies holding hands. Honestly, I have a crush on you. You are all things wonderfull, but alas our relationship could never work. You are in love with someone else, and I'm too pussy to do anything about it.

5: You randomly walked into my life, which is pretty cool. So far, I like you a lot. I think that what you do for a living is absolutly adorable and commendable. I wish I lived closer to you so we could hang out all of the time and laugh about the little things. Someday you'll save up enough to take a bus out here.

6: I miss you a lot! You're so good with feelings and emotions, and I feel like I can talk to you about anything. Take good care of my Mutton Chops. I'll come to visit soon.

7: You are one of the coolest people that I know. You drink. A lot. And that's cool, because you are hillarious. We bond over HK, knowing that we both have a little problem with the extent of our collections. I wish I could put you in my pocket and carry you around with me everywhere.

8: You are the smartest and most creative person that I know. One might call you brilliant. I remember when I was your age, I would just skip school to smoke pot. You're better than that though. I love you very much and you're one of my best friends. Juicebox slept at my house the other night and I think you've got some direct competition going.

9: It seems like we never got to see each other anymore. I'm always home and out of my room while you are home and in your room. That's silly. We need to rent some girly movies and eat Krispie Kremes, then cry and get fat. I love you. Not like that.

10: I put you back on my friends list because I don't like this whole ambiguity thing we have going on. You're a controversial type of guy, which I kind of like. So please stop with the "I'm not talking to Lane because of somthing that happened over a year ago" shit. You're cool, let's just be cool.

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02:11pm 29/10/2004
  First of all, I would like to give a shout out to my hommie Fil. Hang in there, it'll go away eventually.

I woke up this morning to find the floor of my house covered in passed out kids. They woke up and ate some trail mix and talked with me for a bit. Some of them were throwing balls around and having fun. I guess they were a band called Dunebuggy and I saw a little bit of them playing at the show last night.

Going to bars kind of weirds me out, and it's just not as much fun as it used to be. Sad but true. I see all of these older people who were around when I was a youngster, and it sucks because they suck. Eh...I just need to find a dive bar with Bob Segar on the jukebox.

I do believe that I failed my Elementary Logic midterm miserably. Not cool. I had no fucking clue what to do, and it was like trying to work a secret decoder on crack. I fucking hate that class and the professor is a prick too!

I've been in pretty good spirits lately, not sure why, although I bet my LJ boyfriend has something to do with it.

Allright, Hugs and Kisses to everyone. I'm going to take a nap. Peace.

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11:58am 28/10/2004
  I am absolutly smitten with my super secret boyfriend.  

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10:57am 22/10/2004
  Age 18) I smoked pot for the first time in years and at the stroke of midnight I walked into a gas station, slammed down my ID, and bought a pack of Newport 100's and a lottery scratch off ticket. I went to the porn store for the first time ever and recieved a packet of lube for free for my birthday. I de-virginized my boyfriend and got my labret peirced, all in one day. The best birthday so far.

Age 19) My parents sent me a camera and I skipped school to take pictures with it. I was 300 miles away from home and I felt really good. Some of my friends got me flowers and one made me a special card.

Age 20) I remember crying all day long, feeling sorry for myself. I curled up into a ball on my bed, not wanting to get up and face the world. Tony drove my car while Gillian Welch played on the speakers. I wanted to open the door and jump out while the car was still moving. Thee absolute worst birthday ever. Ever.

Age 21) We'll see what it has to offer. I hope a lot of fun fiascos and long time no see reunions. My mother has told me not to over-do it with the booze, my brother gave me 20 dollars and told me not to spend it all on cigs and crack, I told him that I would do my best. I hope that everyone importaint to me comes to my party and goes out with me on Saturday night.

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05:07pm 19/10/2004
  To Thee Random Journal Guy,

Tell me more about yourself, your hobbies, interests, ect.

I'll share a bit of myself with everyone out there in LJ Land.

I was born 2 weeks late and with a club foot, I had lots of opperations when I was little. I only hung out with boys at recess time in grade school, because I thought playing with dolls was dumb. I actually liked Polly Pocket a lot though. I discovered punk rock in the 7th grade and have been in love ever since. I was president of the only Gay-Straight Alliance north of Madison when I was a junior and senior. I love the movie Beaches, and I always cry during the sun setting on the beach scene. My father is jewish, my mother was raised catholic but is now a unitarian.

Right now I am going to school for history and someday I hope to do research about slave culture in the deep south while writing books. I am diagnosed with manic-depressive psychosis and I spent most of July in the psych. hospital; once because I was hearing things with a great intensity and secondly because I did something really stupid. I live in a house with no windows and I love it! My favorite book is Roots and my favorite band is Crass. I go to sleep laying on my side but I wake up on my back. I have 50+ pairs of shoes and 13 piercings. My hair is mostly dreaded and I died it an awesome dark red color, my bangs are purple. My favorite color is blue. I enjoy domestic work like sewing and knitting. Evry peice of art that I make has some sort of writing on it, maybe poetry, maybe random train of thought type stuff. I don't eat meat but I don't really like veggies all that much either.

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01:51pm 18/10/2004
  I woke up this morning with a peice of metal in my mouth. Odd, I know. I spit it out and it turned out to be the stud for my monroe piercing. This is the second time that this has happened in about two weeks. The ball was lost somewhere on my bed and I had to climb all over to get it. I did find it though! Yes, sucess!

I'm paying some of my tuition tommorow. Fuck.

I made the mistake of downloading lots of cute love songs on my computer. I thought I could make a happy cd featuring all of these adorable 50's esque girl songs, but I was wrong. Then I made matters worse by adding "The Luckiest" by Ben Folds. Bad news. Now when I drive in my car I just want to curl up into a little ball and cry.

I decided that I can't decide. I don't feel angry, but I want to punch him. I miss him, but I'm glad he's gone. It's really confusing. I feel like I've been wronged, like he was lying to me the whole time. I love him a whole bunch and I hope he finds a nice girl who will treat him better than I did. I'm still in love with him, it's true.

I don't believe in soul mates anymore. Still, I sometimes find myself daydreaming about the perfect person for me. I wonder what they'll look like, what types of books they like to read, maybe even what they were like as a child. I know there are a number of people out there that would compliment me wonderfully, I just wish they would find me because right now I'm in no shape to be looking.

So, if you're out there and reading this, show yourself. We can go on picnics right by the bay and I know about secret beaches that we could play on. Maybe we could drive around in your car after midnight out to the the lake in the pouring rain just to watch the lighting over the water. We could just sit in my livingroom watching cheesy horror movies. It doesn't take much to make me happy.

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01:44pm 16/10/2004
  Dear Friends,
As of October 24th, Lane Melanie Huber Morein will have reached the age of 21, making it legal for her to be at bars to see shows. Shit yes. I was thinking too, that this is the last mile stone into adulthood. I've heard from several people that it all goes downhill from here. I hope not.

I'm going to be having a party at my house on the 24th during the afternoon, and I would love for some of you folks to stop by. Sorry, kegs will not be involved. We're going to eat hourdurves and listen to Miles Davis. Classy.

Now take a look at this super cute quiz.
Knitting Adventurer
You appear to be a Knitting Adventurer.
You are through those knitting growing pains and
feeling more adventurous. You can follow a
standard pattern if it's not too complicated
and know where to go to get help. Maybe you've
started to experiment with different fibers and
you might be eyeing a book with a cool
technique you've never tried. Perhaps you
prefer to stick to other people's patterns but
you are trying to challenge yourself more.
Regardless of your preference, you are
continually trying to grow as a knitter, and as
well you should since your non-knitting friends
are probably dropping some serious hints, these

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05:33pm 05/10/2004
  Things I've heard in the past hour---

A couple outside of Save-a-Lot, the woman said "You had 12 last night" then man said "52 bitch". Makes no sense.

My mother explaining that when she was a kid, she would pee outside all of the time. "I was too busy playing to go into the house to use the bathroom". Also, My mother told me that if you can't pee in your front yard, then you live to close to other people. Weird.

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